SECRET: I am a little mad at my best friend. She was supposed to see me today, and she had to cancel, for valid reasons. I knew she would cancel because I knew this would happen and I understand. Yet, I am resentful and I don't know what to do with these feelings. Because its a pointless anger, because I can't change the circumstances. Sigh. I'm confused. please notice: this video was copyright claimed-- so i have *no* control of the ads in this video :((( ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Schedule: * Workouts Sessions posted Mon - Thurs at 9:00am EST * Journal Sessions posted Mon - Thurs at 11:00am EST - 20min * Study Sessions posted Mon - Thurs at 12:00pm EST - 2hr 50/10 pomodoro sessions ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Email: contact.risika@gmail.com ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… FAQ Why? A: I was listening to a podcast that said, “it’s important to live life by design rather than emotion. Basically, sticking to a routine is what allows us to be the healthiest version of ourselves (especially when you're fighting these demons ex. OCD for me). I’ve had to overhaul how I approach studying, working out and taking care of my brain (journaling) by practising mediocre consistency. Now I try to put in consistent 50-60% effort into my studying, exercise and journaling habit - to make sure I do it I began recording it and posting it on YT. Because historically I have a habit of going too hard, not being able to sustain the Herculean effort, giving up and hating myself. So now I’m trying to give a small, consistent mediocre effort everyday. And its crazy how it adds up, and its crazy how when I get into a slump im better prepared to get out of it. What do you study? A: combination of course work for my business degree and volunteer work, where I translate primary research (Tamil to English) so it can be used to write papers for the organization I help out. I’m not the best at reading/writing Tamil so it takes a lot of elbow grease, which is why I try to work consistently everyday so I dont procrastinate, get overwhelmed and crash. Are you diagnosed with ocd? A: Yesssssssir. Been seeing a therapist. Love that lady. Why did you place ads? A: this video was copyright claimed-- so i have *no* control of the ads in this video :((( I'm not a monetized channel and would never put ads during the sessions so all i can do is apologize if there are any since i didn't want to take it down despite of this. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… Ko-Fi! https://ko-fi.com/risika ………………………………………………………………………………………….……………………… MUSIC No copyright intended